I guess I should start from the beginning....
About 20 weeks ago.. I found out that I was pregnant with baby number 3! It was a big shock and not planned.. so when i took the test and it was positive .. lets just say it would of been a great time to see the look on my face! I think I remember the words..."You've got to be kidding me'' come out of my mouth!!
I was so nervous to tell Brandon because he was under so much stress at work that I didn't want to induce a heartattack! But I told him because lets face it, he's to blame right? lol But he didn't pass out or anything so that was a good sign... (side note) he had a little smile on his face
A few days later we decided to tell our 5 year old Ethan the news.. Daddy said "Ethan there's a baby is mommies belly" His reply .." mommy I already knew you were pregnant, I've been praying for a baby sister.. Again a great time to see the look on my face... Wishing to myself that he would pray for a bigger house and more money along with his prayer for a baby sister .. I just smiled and said you did..
As the weeks went on .. the first 15 weeks to be exact I became sicker and sicker until i could barely funtion! it was so dreadful for everyone that had to be around me.. Luckily I had friends and family to help me out and myhusband was a good sport..
As time has passed I have become more stressed out and worried about how in the world we are going to provide for another baby.. Scared how Im going to manage taking care of 3 children basically by myself because Brandon is at work constantly... All these things have been flooding my mind for almost 25weeks now and I have been worried and scared and depressed hoping and praying that we are going to be able to provide for our children and praying that our baby ( who by the way is a little girl) will be healthy and happy.. that I haven't known what to do.. I've been stressing over getting the rooms finished and house back in order and just so many different things.. our marriage has been stressful because of it and its just been hard...
But then something happened....... We drug ourselves out of bed this morning and made it to church( something that has been very hard to do these last several weeks) and as I was sitting in the santuary listening to one of our youth pastors preach.. my self diagnosed ADD started to take over..
Yes this baby was not planned.... But... God has a plan for our life.. This baby is a gift from God.. (I think to Ethan)lol God is not going to have us walk on the path that he has us on to just leave us by ourselves to figure things out.. He is not going to put this baby in our hands and not give us a way to provide for her and her brothers.. As I set in the pew and thought about all the things I started to cry.. Trying to hold back as much as I could b/c I hate to cry in front of people and it made me remember why I always had long hair so i could hide behind it when I did cry. lol.. But sitting there just thining about how God as always took care of us and provided for us just made a calm and peace come over me.. He will never leave us.. He is always here for us and he is the ruler of my life and he has the plan and it is my job to do his will and be patient with him because he knows what he is doing.. Now do I think that a check from ed mcman is going to show up inmy mailbox ?no.. but I think that God will send opportunities for us to be able to provide for this baby and buy er the hings she needs..
That is whynow more then
ever I think that the name we have picked out for this little lady is the perfect name..........
Elyza Dae
It means "Gods Promise"
Hope everyone has a wonderful week! And remember be a blessing to someone this week you won't believe what one kind thing you do can change how someones whole week goes..
About 20 weeks ago.. I found out that I was pregnant with baby number 3! It was a big shock and not planned.. so when i took the test and it was positive .. lets just say it would of been a great time to see the look on my face! I think I remember the words..."You've got to be kidding me'' come out of my mouth!!
I was so nervous to tell Brandon because he was under so much stress at work that I didn't want to induce a heartattack! But I told him because lets face it, he's to blame right? lol But he didn't pass out or anything so that was a good sign... (side note) he had a little smile on his face
A few days later we decided to tell our 5 year old Ethan the news.. Daddy said "Ethan there's a baby is mommies belly" His reply .." mommy I already knew you were pregnant, I've been praying for a baby sister.. Again a great time to see the look on my face... Wishing to myself that he would pray for a bigger house and more money along with his prayer for a baby sister .. I just smiled and said you did..
As the weeks went on .. the first 15 weeks to be exact I became sicker and sicker until i could barely funtion! it was so dreadful for everyone that had to be around me.. Luckily I had friends and family to help me out and myhusband was a good sport..
As time has passed I have become more stressed out and worried about how in the world we are going to provide for another baby.. Scared how Im going to manage taking care of 3 children basically by myself because Brandon is at work constantly... All these things have been flooding my mind for almost 25weeks now and I have been worried and scared and depressed hoping and praying that we are going to be able to provide for our children and praying that our baby ( who by the way is a little girl) will be healthy and happy.. that I haven't known what to do.. I've been stressing over getting the rooms finished and house back in order and just so many different things.. our marriage has been stressful because of it and its just been hard...
But then something happened....... We drug ourselves out of bed this morning and made it to church( something that has been very hard to do these last several weeks) and as I was sitting in the santuary listening to one of our youth pastors preach.. my self diagnosed ADD started to take over..
Yes this baby was not planned.... But... God has a plan for our life.. This baby is a gift from God.. (I think to Ethan)lol God is not going to have us walk on the path that he has us on to just leave us by ourselves to figure things out.. He is not going to put this baby in our hands and not give us a way to provide for her and her brothers.. As I set in the pew and thought about all the things I started to cry.. Trying to hold back as much as I could b/c I hate to cry in front of people and it made me remember why I always had long hair so i could hide behind it when I did cry. lol.. But sitting there just thining about how God as always took care of us and provided for us just made a calm and peace come over me.. He will never leave us.. He is always here for us and he is the ruler of my life and he has the plan and it is my job to do his will and be patient with him because he knows what he is doing.. Now do I think that a check from ed mcman is going to show up inmy mailbox ?no.. but I think that God will send opportunities for us to be able to provide for this baby and buy er the hings she needs..
That is whynow more then
ever I think that the name we have picked out for this little lady is the perfect name..........
Elyza Dae
It means "Gods Promise"
Hope everyone has a wonderful week! And remember be a blessing to someone this week you won't believe what one kind thing you do can change how someones whole week goes..
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